Letting go is Love

This week has been challenging. A simple truth- I am recently divorced and struggle in every class that “divorce” must be printed on my forehead and every beautiful couple with joy and anticipation must sense my failure. I struggled for years with my marriage, I loved my husband madly, he is the most dynamic human I have ever meet. We sat in my little kitchen yesterday and he told me over and over “you were always this wonderful, you were alway more amazing and capable than me” this coming from a man who has worked on Broadway, movies and television for the last decade.
I have fallen in love with my own dreams this past year- but I fear the work of making it happen. I love the process of teaching a class and inspiring a couple to believe in themselves. I love how I transform my anxious self into a centered calm loving human at each birth, my breath fills my lungs lingers there for a moment and then gently trickles down my arms and back and the room magically transforms into a peaceful oasis for birth.
I teach couples to let go of their fear or birthing and parenting, I believe I am called to teach this practice so that I will continue to listen. I teach this breath so I will breathe it. I let go with each couple because I know their fear all too well. I believe perhaps my ability to hold on to that feeling and memory allows me to perhaps connect more genuinely with each couple. I don’t wear a turban or sarongs, or meditate on top of a hill, and I never wear patriolle (even though I admire those that do and hope to pursue my true hippie self in my old age). I love a great pair of heels and my hair is anything but natural, I tend to laugh louder than most and love top 20 on the radio and dance with my boys who make me laugh every time they say “turn it up this is my JAM”
Overall what I am saying is that each step we take does not need to be permanent, we can pursue letting go of our fears as each one arrives. We can spend a day hiding and crying if that is what we need, but be sure to reach out, talk to those that love you and trust me their are more that love you than you could ever imagine if you simply let them in.

About Kate Sullivan

I have been teaching HypnoBirthing and attending births as a HypnoBirthing Labor Companion since 2008. My passion comes from empowering every family, whether it is a quick inquiry to learn more or a client that I joyfully spend hours counseling with HypnoBirthing or rushing off to a birth at 2 in the morning. I want to teach you how to trust yourself, your body and give your partner those same tools so that you can begin your journey as parents with confidence.
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